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June 25th, 2008 by wizurai31

Dgn nama Allah Yg Maha Pemurah..

alhamdulillah..masih lg bernafas dlm islam saat ini…mampu lg nk mencoret..mampu lagi nk menconteng kat cni.. hohoho…setelah 36 jam (kiraan lebih kurang) tamat dr jihad di medan pena. ni sekadar saje share.

and they always say “make ur life meaningful every single second of it.” hohoho..so i’m trying to make it very meaningful thanx to Him. and so i did..hehe..starting from yesterday to be precise..so i’m gonna write my experiences starting this morning. Might get a lil’ bored about my story. basically the story is about how to get visa in russia. ’bout the the title of this story, don’t mind ’bout it. if u read this post then u’ll understand.

10.30 a.m.

check point 1.gone of to return the books i borrowed. let me tell a lil’ bit bout how things work here in russia. first up, the library. yeah, can imagine right now in ur guys heads that library especially in the universities means a condusive place to study, wif all the big and thick books in it, large place wif lots of table and so on. u can keep all that in ur head. Here, library means two women working in a small room wif books that u can’t actually pick them by urself. sorry to break the news, but reality does hurt. so u guys out there, if ur coming to study to russia, might as well get ur mind set right. ‘expect the unexpected’ that’s wut my seniors always say.

11.30 a.m.

finally ’bout one hour stuck in that so called ‘library’,me and me friend went to the second check point. sky was becoming dark grey. Went to 2nd hostel n got the signature. Next stop. the bufeka (one of the buildings in nnsma). another ‘library’ to get the 3rd signature. Ni kisah benar wey. Bukan rekaan mahupun fantasi semate2. tingkap itu menjadi saksi. Di sertakan dgn penyaksian manusia2 ini..rubi, sai n ain. Alkisahnye kitorg ni kena ambil sign ketiga di bufeka. Maka kitorg turunlah basement utk mengambilnya. Line mase tu pnjg so sai redah utk bertny kpd makcik yg kije kat dlm ‘library’ tu. Dan setelah itu makcik tu pun panggil kitorg masuk melalui pintu belakang. Ni part paling best. Kitorg ingt mane la makcik n ink bawak kitorg. Rupe2nye die soh kitorg panjat tingkap tu n kuar n jln straight pegi library lg satu yg aku xpernah tau maujud kat c2. Never in my whole life I had to climb up a window to go to a library adeh..russians are always full of surprises. Walhal library tu kat belakang bangunan bufeka tu je..adeh..makcik2..

1.oo p.m.

arrived at deans to get the visa. Alhamdulillah all is well that ends well. Got the visa, went to buy some souvenirs n then head back home. Another important event. Countered with a makcik who works as a pendakwah kristian. If u ask my experience wif this guys might as well don’t ask. Just keep in heart Allah itu Ahad. N just listen to what him or her (referring to the pendakwah Christian) have to say to respect them. Bagi aku, aku pegang yg ini..lakum dinukum waliyadin..walahu’alam.(masih insan yg lemah utk berkata-kata)

5.30 p.m.

Went to MEGA (a shopping complex). Bought some stuff and belian paling bermakna adalah aku dapat beli bola..muahahaha,,bola tampar..syok ah.. nk train bebudak yg malas bersukan ni utk sihatkan badan. Mane xnya asyik dok dlm bilik terperap tgk citer aje. Habislah korg. Aku nk wat rule korg wajib turun riadah. Hehehe..

10.30 p.m.

Arrived home safe n sound alhamdulillah. Don’t be shocked ok. It’s 10. 00 p.m. but the skies are still red. So, went n setlle stuff n then watch movies.

6.00 a.m

And i haven’t sleep. Penangan kopi segelas di MEGA menyebabkan aku ni sukar utk melelapkan mate.

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The REAL exam.

June 21st, 2008 by wizurai31

In the name of my Lord The Most Strongest and The Most Merciful.

Wasn’t planning to write anything today coz i’m revising for my last exam. But then again, i feel that i wanted to ‘conteng’ sumthin’. Yup biology. This subject freaks me out coz i need to read a lot and memorize a lot of things. Its not a logic subject therefore need to stuff all the facts in my brain.

Sooo, moving on to the real subject. Life. Its the most difficult subject for me compare to anything. Coz life also has its own examinations. Yes, when i say examinations, the plural ’s’ at the end of the word means a lot, many,jama’,banyak,mnoga. And i think u guys can manage to think how it is marked and the how the score is given.

Once upon a time i always thought that the marks given are base upon the result of what i did. And then so many people gave advices to me saying that it’s the work that counts not the result and so i did not understood that one fact. Insan is rewarded for the effort of his or her doings. It’s the effort. It took me a long time to understand that one fact.

Example, in the academic world, ‘ala…xyahla susah2 study..study banyak2 pun bukan dpt excellent mark’ or ’study sikit jela..lagipun ikut nasib kan..kalo dpt pemeriksa baik senang dpt markah’ or ‘xpela..kalo dpt pas je pun dh cukup.’(aku selalu je ckp cm tu..huhu..astaghfirullah) When thinking about those words, it’s very wrong for me to have such ideas.

I gave it a lot of thoughts. I found a conclusion that yeah it’s very true that the effort is the one that count. Example, u have been working very hard to prepare for the exams; less sleep, didn’t ate well, close ur computer so u can focus, ect. Until at this one point where u don’t know what else to do. One thing for sure when it comes to this point it means we have to start tawwakal,right? And so when the day arrived u get ur result. If u get good marks, it’s obviously alhamdulillah. But when we get bad marks, what do many of us do? How many of us when get bad marks we say alhamdulillah? Ehe..some might think that ‘kd,ur crazy to say something like that. Who ever wanted bad marks?’ I never said that we have to wish for bad marks. It’s just that try to think it the other way around.

The bad marks that we get are maybe the best for us. ‘ Tidak ada yg mungkin itu lebih baik dr apa yg telah berlaku.’ Because perhaps if we get good marks we might think that we are good enough or smart enough. And by the way, all the result that we obtained has been written earlier by Him. Believe me when I say that the effort that counts it does.

Imagine ur in a situation where u did ur best and then the result sucks. Believe me when u put so much effort on to it, actually the result didn’t matter because u know u put a lot of effort on to it and u know that u did ur very best. So come to think of it, does the result matter? Perhaps He wanted to give u ‘ujian’. Remember this very well. When the Lord loves u He will give u a lot of ‘ujian’. And what’s this ‘ujian’ for? It’s for the Day of Judgment. The day where u’ll need all ur deeds to save u from the hellfire. Yes, that is the real day where we know if we succeed or fail. On that very day, SPM result doesn’t count, Matriculation’s points doesn’t count, if ur a doctor, the title Dr. doesn’t mean anything, if ur an engineer, the title Ir. Is not gonna save u. So, what counts then? Ur deeds. Ur pahala. All ur doings for Him and Him only. Every single thing even though it’s as big as the size of an atom.

Or perhaps in life, He gave us the trial where we loose someone we really love. Someone close. Someone we can’t imagine loosing. He gives us that trial to see what we do. If we love the one that we loose very much, do we pray for his or her safety from the ‘azabilqabr’? Or we just continue to blame fate saying that if he or she is still here it would not be the same? Or whatever ‘if’ that comes to mind. Please bare this in mind. ‘Tidak ada yang mungkin itu lebih baik dari apa yg telah berlaku.’

Now the real question is how to get good marks for that Day? It’s through all the ‘ujian’ that He puts us through. All the trials. When He gave us some good stuff, do we appreciate it or do we have the ‘takabbur’ feeling? When He took the one we love, do we remember that death is always near to us and we don’t have much time actually to be enjoying around with all the ‘dunia’ things? He can take us anytime just like in a blink of the eye or even quicker than that. Straighten up ur ‘niat’ fellow brothers and sisters. If u forget, remember this verse:

“Ingatlah ketika Tuhanmu berfirman kepada para malaikat : ‘Sesungguhnya Aku hendak menjadikan seorang khalifah di muka bumi’…”(2 : 30)

So which one is the Real exam?

What would u do now? Feeling great for ourselves for having great marks? Wining about the bad marks? Feeling sad about the loss of the one we love? Or move on with ur life and try the very best that u can in everything u do so that on that very Day u can prove to Him ‘Dear Lord, I did my very best. I work as hard as I could in all my doings for U and U alone.’

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птица

June 16th, 2008 by wizurai31

Dengan nama Allah yg Maha Tinggi…

“Tidakkah kamu tahu bahawasanya Allah; kepadaNya bertasbih apa yg di langit dan di bumi (juga) burung dgn mengembangkan sayapnya. Masing-masing telah mengetahui (cara) solat dan tasbih dan Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yg mereka kerjakan.” (24:41)

Птица atau melayunya bermaksud burung or english means bird. Ehe..ada ape dgn burung? Xde pape pun sebenarnya. Cuma bila berkata tentang makhluk ni aku akn teringt kepada apa yg pernah disampaikan kepadaku. Iaitu 3 perkara dan ia diumpamakan dgn makhluk ini.

надежда страх любовь. harapan takut cinta. hope fear love.

Yup. 3 perkara di atas ni sgt berkait rapat dlm hidup manusia. Harapan adalah umpama sayap kanan burung. Takut adalah sayap kiri burung. Dan badan burung itu diumpamakan seperti cinta. Bersama keduanya cinta itu mampu diterbangkan. Tanpa keduanya layakkah kita mengatakan kita cinta pada Dia?

Untuk apakah 3 perkara ini? Untuk siapakah 3 perkara ini? Tepuk dada tanya iman.

Saidina ‘Ali pernah mengatakan “Kalau dari seluruh hamba Allah ini hanya ada seorg sahaja yg akn masuk ke syurga, aku berharap itu adalah aku. Kalau dari seluruh hamba Allah ini akn hanya ada seorg sahaja yg akn masuk ke neraka, aku takut itu adalah aku.”

Kerana aku masih lagi terkapai-kapai. Masih lagi mencari-cari. Apa ertinya ketakutan sebenar? Apa ertinya harapan sebenar? Dan yang paling utama, apakah erti cinta yg sebenar?

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warkah buat az-zaharah

June 11th, 2008 by wizurai31

Dgn Nama Allah yg kerajaanNya meliputi langit dan bumi, Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

Semoga sejahtera sentiasa ke atas kamu ya zamili. Warkah ni khas aku buat utk kau yg bergelar az-zaharah.^__^V (straight after latin punya exam ni tau..hehehe..meski ade 3 lagi yg bakal mendatang tp tu citer len. Ni arini punye citer) Ok2..melalut pulak aku ni. Sori2.Ok2..terus2.

Nk bawak kau kembali kembara pada satu kenangan dahulu…

Jun 2007,-Cemara,Shah Alam.

Aku tgh penat bawak barang dr ground floor ke tingkat 4. Suasana tgh hari time tu sgtle panas. Beg pulak beso2. Ade la dlm 4 kali turun naik blok tu..(adeh..memang tu zaman kegemilangan aku kurus ah) Sampai2 je kt atas, ada dua bilik. Satu bilik tu dh occupied jd aku pun amekla bilik lagi satu. Dan masa tu kau bawak tentera kau dtg. Mak kau,bapak kau, adek kau..ntah sape ntah lagi..xingt ehe..sebab aku dok sebok angkut barang..pastu mama aku tny mak kau ni dari mane ni?Mak kau kate dr segamat. Dalam hati aku ‘eh, mcm ku kenal nama tempat tu.Ha..kawan aku yg add aku kat fs aritu.’ Aku pun melulu masuk dlm bilik pastu aku tny nama kau. Kau jwb “Ha’ah. Eh, mane kenal?” Pastu aku sebut fs. Kite dua glak kuat gile..hehehe..cm nk runtuh blok tu.

Julai 2007-InTec, Shah Alam.

Time tu sebok2 nk pilih u mane nk masuk kat russia ni..

“Kd, kau nk masuk u mane?”

“Ntah. Aku pilih volgo kot. Diorg kate kat situ aman.(Aman cmne aku pun xtau). Lagipun mase aku 1st dpt tawaran mmg aku target nk g situ. Ade sungai. Best2. Kau?”

“Aku nk g nizhny.”
“Apesal?”

“Ntah. Aku tgk cm best je presentation senior aritu.”

“Ala..jom ah g volgo. Ade sungai. Ade sungai.”

“Ko ni..cm kat nizhny tu xde sungai je.”

“Ikut suke kamula.” (Tp seyes time tgk presentation senior tu terasa cm best je kalo nk g nizhny. Tp xpe ah..dh tekad nk pilih volgo). Aku ingt pertemuan akan berakhir di situ tp tidak.

Ogos 2007-Putrajaya.

“Siti Khadijah Mohd Mokhtar. NNSMA”

Hoh??? Aku dpt nizhny kah? Nmpknya jodoh aku dgn kau masih panjang. Pesis hidup kita buka satu kebetulan tetapi sunnatullah yg akan berterusan. Pasti ada hikmah kenapa aku dpt nizhny. Terasa keseorangan bila tujuh, dua dr kita ke mma, dua lagi ke vsmu dan tiga dr kita ke nnsma. Yup felt like the journey was alone from now own. Coz u have ur best friend wif u n me? well guess hv to depend on myself. N i got the most patient person as my roommate.(Alhamdulillah). Kau pun phm2le kan mase ko jd roommate aku dulu cmne..hehehe..

Dan kini…2008-Nizhny.

Terima kasih kerana sudi menjadi sahabat aku hingga kini. Mendgr masalah aku. Medgr rintihan hati ini. Mengajar hati ini bersyukur kerana punyai sahabat seperjuangan seperti kau. Mengenalkan aku tentang erti kesabaran dan sayang..meski hati ni masih gelap kerana noda jahiliyyah tp kau tetap x putus bagi kata semangat kepada aku. Kau selalu kate “Kd, usaha dulu. Jgn malas. Kurangkan tido tu.” memula aku ingt cm xberkesan je kata2 kau kat aku..hehehe.(aku akui hati masih keras) tp bila fikir balik..hey it’s taking it’s effect on me. Manage to reduce my sleep..yeay.Dan terima kasih kerana mendoakan aku setiap hari dgn kata2 kau tu.

Aku sebenarnya cemburu dgn kau. Cemburu bila melihat kau sgt penyabar. Cemburu bila melihat kau sedih kerana Dia. Cemburu bila Dia menurunkan ujian2 kepada kau. Kerana aku rasa aku sndiri x mampu nk hadapi ujian2 yg kau terima kalau aku berada di tempat kau dan menjadi sesabar itu. Tp kau berjaya gak lalui. Permulaan kesabaran adalah pahit tetapi akan manis diakhirnya. Dan bila aku menyaksikan kemenangan2 kau, aku lebih semangat.

Jangan pernah mengalah wahai az-zaharah. Persis kehidupan kita bukan satu kebetulan tp sunnatullah yg akn berterusan. Ada hikmah kenapa aku dan kau ditemukan di bumi nizhny. Ada satu rencana hebat yg Dia susun utk kita. Ada satu matlamat agung yg kita perlu selesaikan di nizhny ni. Jom, aku dan kau, kita kasik gempak nizhny ni dgn ayat2 cinta dr Kekasih teragung. Kita buktikan kepada mereka bahawa ukhwah ini xkan putus. Bahawa hati ini telah diikat utk satu taat setia. Meskipun berderai air mata, meskipun terhiris jiwa..x mengapa kerana dlm hidup ini adakalanya kita perlu menangis agr kita tahu bahawa hidup ini bukan sekadar utk ketawa dan adakalanya kita perlu ketawa agr kita tahu menilai mahalnya titis air mata. Dan kalau kau perlukan bantuan, aku ada bila2 sahaja utk memberi sokongan. InsyaAllah. Bertemunya kita kerana Allah dan andainya berpisah kita satu hari nnt juga kerana Allah.

Selamat Hari Lahir.

Salam sayang dr,

At-tohirah.

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adam

June 6th, 2008 by wizurai31

Dengan Nama Allah yg Maha Penyayang,

Adam,mengertilah…

Hawa bukanlah insan yg kuat..

bukan juga insan yg bisa menahan nafsu..

tatkala diri diuji, Hawa sering tewas…

tewas dgn godaan syaitan & nafsu sendiri..

Adam,mengertilah…

sungguh, Hawa telah cuba melakukan yg terbaik..

agar diri ini tidak menjadi fitnah dunia…

telah Hawa cuba menjaga diri ini sebaik-baiknya..

Hawa sedaya upaya menjauhkan diri dari tabarruj..

perfume, make up, perhiasan…

telah Hawa elakkan sejauh-jauhnya..

namun mengapa masih Adam tertarik pd Hawa

yg serba kekurangan ini..

Adam,mengertilah…

Hawa ini berjiwa lembut…

sukar untuk Hawa menolak bila Adam meminta…

Hawa tau permintaan Adam

tak mungkin membawa Hawa ke kancah maksiat…

namun, Hawa lemah…

Hawa takut zina hati…

Adam,mengertilah…

setiap kali ’sms’ diterima..

Hawa keliru…

ingin sekali Hawa membiarkan sahaja..

tapi Hawa akur tuntutan sahabat…

Hawa tewas…

Hawa reply juga…

mengenangkan Adam adalah sahabat….

Adam,mengertilah…

setiap layanan yg Hawa beri hanya sekadar membantu..

mungkin Hawa adalah antara kasih sayang Allah yg dikurniakan buat Adam..

memudahkan perjalanan hidup Adam..

jgn disalah tafsir apa yg Hawa berikan..

Adam,mengertilah…

Hawa mengharapkan Adam menjaga Hawa..

namun,bukanlah ‘couple’ yg Hawa pinta…

tp cukuplah sekadar tidak memandang Hawa..

cukuplah sekadar menghormati Hawa sebagai Hawa..

jgn dipinta apa yg tak mampu Hawa berikan..

kerana Hawa milik Allah sepenuhnya…

Adam,mengertilah…

p/s: Ni aku cilok dr sai..sai cilok dr mane aku pun xpasti..huhuhu..maka sumber asalnya aku sendiri pun xtau..jd kepada tuan empunya sajak(cm ada je makhluk nk baca blog ni..ehe..kalau ada pun org nk baca gak blog ni,agak2 kalo kenal tuan empunya sajak, tolong paskan kat tuan empunya sajak ni..kate kat dia aku kata sajak ni best,ok?)

sekian meaceh,wallahu’alam.

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